MEWD: I wrote a list

Emma Foster - ASK Blog PicThings I have been unable to do in the last 48 hours due to my depression

  • Get out of bed on my own — if I didn’t have my husband by my side reminding me that I am capable of surviving the day, I would spend a LOT more of my time hiding from the day.
  • Anything that remotely resembles studying — I may have all the good intentions in the world, but that doesn’t help. The other morning I set myself up with my textbooks and my assignment notes. All I wanted to do was type up my handwritten notes and, as this doesn’t really require any higher level thinking, I thought I’d be okay. Ba-bown. When it came time to actually open my laptop, I just couldn’t do it.
  • Be on time — ask anyone and they’ll tell you that the chances of my arriving on time to ANYTHING are ridiculously low. Often, the reason behind this is that it takes a lot of effort to drag myself around the house and get ready. Depression puts me on a go slow, and oftentimes it takes away my willingness to be in public and interact with human beings (this is also due to my social anxiety)
  • Cook. Anything — I’m not a great cook at the best of times, but I can usually rustle up a curry or stir-fry, or something else fairly low-effort to feed myself and my partner. Not so lately. When it comes time for dinner preparation, I can’t think of a single thing to create, let alone work up the motivation to actually move and get that happening.

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